so john texted me this morning and woke me up.. which ended up being ok cuz he came over for a couple hours and met my mom, and my aunt. random but exciting, mommy likes him. we didnt really do much but it's always an amazing time when I'm with him so it was alright. I'm just sitting, waiting to leave I guess. the next couple of days will be really intense so hopefully I can sleep today or something.

almost done with packing. then I'm off =]

love

I'm not actually bouncy but I adore the look on the fox's face haha

Current Location: living room
Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: dani california- red hot chili peppers

so the last couple days have been hectic. with graduation and all. I finished the year strong on my finals, very happy. minus the fact that I got a B- on my math final because i got ONE question wrong... and he took 5 points off which was basically enough to bring my grade down that low.. fuck that. I got a B/B- on my history paper which was good because I have a c in that class, so seeing as ive worked my ass off in that class maybe I'll finish with a B-. I got a B in english as my final grade which is fine because english can suck dick. I got a B on my spanish final, A on the oral bc I'm that good at speaking spanish :D and an A- on my bio final, i worked my ass off on that one too. so I'm gonna guess my final grades right about now
Bio: B
Math: B+/A-
History: B-
Spanish: B+
English: B
not too too bad... not good enough though

IB is killing me, I need to start writing my 16 page paper on causes, effects, and a potential solution to Maorian Racism. that should be fun.

The grad party was ok, lots of cool ppl i guess. the pamm boys made an appearance which was cool bc i haven't seen them in a long time. Rob is able to drive by himself in a week, thats scary haha. chris is off to georgia for school next year, good for aunt lou, she deserves someone near her. chris is a potential escort selection for next year. According to greenville society, thatd be a really smart match, but it won't happen. he's a good kid, look him up if you're in georgia.

So I'm stalling packing, because I'm lazy and because I don't wanna leave yet...

This morning I woke up to a text from will, and then he called me and we made breakfast together. it was sweet. I'm gonna go see him on thursday morning before I leave, and watch madagascar because thats one of the best ways to end my time in the US before I leave. I hope that goes well, he's kind of amazing like that.

John's getting frustrated at me lately, I feel really bad. I don't want him too. we totally act like an old couple that love eachother but fight all the time haha. we're precious. <3

I hope i get to see morgan before I leave, i was supposed to chill with him before but then we couldn't

I was supposed to hang out with kyle too, but he has this communication issue, its frustrating.

justin just went to the beach, I'm really jealous.

I should really go pack now, love love love

em

Current Location: my room
Current Mood: calm
Current Music: blink-182, bringin it back

so theres this boy.....


and he's kind of my soulmate....



you know

umm greatest night of my life? potentially....

started off pretty beat, was really pissed in newark.

then it got better

and better

and better. and by the end of the night, well it was pretty swell :D



I needed that. real bad.

Current Location: family room
Current Mood: naughty
Current Music: bayside

I'm so frustrated.
here's my schedule for the day I leave for italy ( as explained to my by my dad)
keep in mind that I don't need to be at the airport until 4:15 which means i don't need to leave until about 3:45, which leaves a good chunk of the day for me to see my friends etc. before i leave.

I'd like you to be here, packed and ready with all your luggage, by noon. Catherine and the kids will then drive you to my office in pennsylvania. I have a meeting that I'd like Catherine to sit in on, so I'm going to ask you to watch the kids for about an hour while that's going on, just play on the lawn or something. and then once that's over, we'll take you to the airport, sound good?


first of all, you won't ask me to watch the kids, you expect me to watch them, since when have you asked me anything? did you ask me if you could marry catherine? did you ask me if it was ok that you messed around with other women when i was a baby? no. so why would you ask me now, you just expect me to go along with it.

secondly, who says I want you to take me to the airport. if anyone I want mom to, hell I can even drive myself, you can even pay for parking, thatll be my contribution towards college.

now why in hell would I want to spend my last day in the states before going away doing that? what is going through his mind when he explains this to me. he probably thinks I'll have no problem with it, just like always.

Its just an example of the daily expectations of my dad. but he's in no position to expect anything of me. so why should I go along. but no I'll smile and go along with it just so I don't have to sit through a maturity talk, about how I'm not responsible and how without him I wouldn't be anything

bull fucking shit.

I want to embrace the fact that I'm going on this amazing vacation, but theres so much holding me back.

fuck it


<3 jgc

Current Location: comfy chair
Current Mood: infuriated
Current Music: silverstein

it's been awhile, i was live jounal stalking yesterday so i decided that it was time for me to update :D it's almost summer, which means it's almost time for italy. I'm excited don't get me wrong but I'm gonna miss a LOT while i'm gone. hopefully everyone won't have disappeared off the face of the earth or anything. this weekend was pretty fun i guess, friday night was crazy and full of dibs. john came over to maria's and stayed till about 1:30, it was pretty amazing I must say, I'm having lunch with him today ::nervous::. tomorrow is the bio final oh man that's exciting. not really. potentially gettin the big B-races off tomorrow, but doubtful. getting a perm on thursday, exciting? thursday I'm going to toms, that might suck because he sucks but whatever.

so my schedule for today would be
pack up and go to moms
pull out some bio study materials
get ready for lunch over a period of two hours
be nervous as fuck
go to lunch
come back home satisfied and completely charmed
study
work out and shower
come home and study some more.


exciting no?

take me to the beach...

Current Location: my basement
Current Mood: anxious
Current Music: the academy is...- skeptics and true believers

ksolike... its almost spring break.. SO EXCITED i get to see the love of my life david allen next weekend. awesome concert sunday... possible awesome concert saturday. grades friday bleh... off to CT, of to boston, off to the bahamas :D so im getting my hair chopped off on friday... im a little bit nervous.. its for locks of love.. :D mmkay busy day friday comin up. so mark forbes and brent called me again wanting to hang out, unfortunately i was at the beach. ugh im bored laterr

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: asia minor

hola chiquitossss
ok so its been... forever since i last posted nd theres a lot going on i think... so here's the low down if u care enough:::

*Rich moved out, i dont know if he's coming back. its really really not fun.. i cant trust anyone anymore, especially not boys cuz it seems like every man/boy that comes into my life backstabs me and leaves me with nothing. its not a feel bad for me thing its a wtf how can u do that and feel ok about it u know?

*swimming swimming swimming, is pretty cool i guess, then again i havent done it in three weeks... hmm

*Turks n caicos= amazing, great trip

*IB=the death of me

* aint he the cutest... new bf... again this could b bad cuz i have trust issues but so far so good, one month n counting

*less than jake, lets go ok so i dont give a fuck if theyre main stream or whatever they make me effin happy ok. its kinda like fall out boy, everyone secretly loves fall out boy or even if they hate them they probably used to liek them so i dont wanna hear that u hate them mmkay? less than jake is my happy maker so if i wanna go see them i will cuz who doesnt love them WHO DOESNT LOVE THEM

*the matches concert is sold out.... that makes me SO SAD cuz theyre my fav... u kno wat.... sad prolly cuz theyre with motion city soundtrack buhhh

*thats all i got for u really oh wait i went to the eagles game last sunday, FRONT ROW BISHES :D greatest day everrrrr

im out
*peace*

Current Mood: nd sick
Current Music: saosin

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( ) been fired
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(x ) been in an abusive relationship
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(x) made a snow angel

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(x) slept naked
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